| The heart softens as each night makes way for a new dawn. Where I was cold, heat approaches. It vacuums me in, demanding more vulnerability. Everything I wished to speak to you, in front of you... face to face, I now write here. To a phantom, because it feels safer. Because your indifference left me disgraced. Because where a heart is already wounded, even a tender breeze feels to it like unforgiving winds. They say Time heals all wounds, then why do some feel as if they only fester? Have I been neglecting this poor heart with my proud and noble mind? I want to be gentle and innocent again, back when I believed love triumphed all. But in this era, people seem to forget so easily the fragrance of true intimacy. And so like the many sheep, I hang my head low and learn to speak their language. But my heart... my heart storms, it protests. I want to be a Fool again. Wise in court, but stupid and trusting in love. I want to give of myself the way a child does. Though I know it cannot be love when the need for power grips the hearts of lovers. For better or for worse, trust is a difficult discerning... And naivety it seems has us in circles again. A crab approaches sideways in all things. He tells you he loves you, then runs away in the end. But I know myself to be a lion in my heart. Do I not deserve a pulse like my own? If there is no I and You, then why does loving you hurt me too? In the end, the thread that bound us together only lasted a season. Still, I do not know the reason. I know that the present holds a door and beckons me to walk through. I know that once I do, the shell will be left behind. A crab no longer, only human. I want you to know last night I had a glimpse of what awaited me on the other side. Freedom from the many masks we wore throughout lifetimes of I and You. Ghosts of the memories, of the eternal dance that you saw when you first looked into my eyes. And forgot at last... on the day you said goodbye. |
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