Chronic Fatigue, Anxiety.... abandonment, rejection.... a leap of trust. Amazing. Bravery, true courage is in the honest truth. Not have to hide anything... to truly let go and love yourself, forgive yourself if you're weak and unable to care for yourself, without "loved ones" in your life judging you to "get back up, get better"
And so you do, for them... not yourself. You do for a while until the energy runs out.... the fear that "if I'm not okay... the people in my life will leave me."
And it happened several times before, I practiced that vulnerability, showed them my wounds and they ran away for whatever reason, it was too triggering or threatening to the stability of their own life.
She talks about how we never really open ourselves up to one another, we all yearn for intimacy, but the shame of feeling rejected or judged makes us shut down and become inaccessible. That shell around the body quickly become a cage unbeknownst to themselves, have the key for unlocking.
To put ourselves in the very real, blemished, vulnerable, shamed parts of ourselves, and show it for everyone wanting to get close. Children, family, spouse.
Ultimately, the majority of everyone's pain, physical and emotional stems from a similar root.
Fear of being unloved in our lowest state (behind the pretty mask, lay the ghastly sight of someone in shame)
Fear of the inevitable abandoning, at rejecting the other's low state.
Why? Only because it hits too close to home, the unresolved issues THEY have with their resistances toward love and compassion.
But wow... this video.... blew my mind.